Rain, Rain go away.. Wait, come back!

To follow up on my last post, which also happened to be my last run, I was miserable and could not walk for a couple of days. My legs were so sore and were very mad at me. Then Tropical Storm Fay made its debut and made running difficult. And yes, I know it sounds just like another excuse and yes I know you can run in the rain. But I'm not running during a tropical storm so my excuse is valid this time, and my lack of motivation helped my excuse remain strong.

With the rain gone as well as my limited motivation, I did venture out on my own last night. According to my running schedule, I should be up to a 25 minute run/walk. I did do my 25 minutes last night, alot more walking than running. To be more exact, 5 minutes of walk/run and the rest just walking.

I don't understand my motivation. I'm motivated in the fact I want to do this, I just lack the motivation of actually doing it. I mean I really, really want this. I get out there on my "run" and the minute I feel tired or hurt, I quit. And I know it will do nothing but make me mad when I think back on it but yet I still do it. I lack the determination to push past my boundaries.

I will be out of town this weekend so it will be another weekend without my group run, ast week was cancelled due to TS Faye and the fact our location was under water. When I do re-join the group they will be up to a 40 minute run/walk. 40 minutes..... 40 MINUTES!!! I can't even make it 5, what am I going to do?